because I have nowhere else to put this

I wish wish wish I could find someone who shares the same interests as me. In a sense that I want to have a really really really really really good conversation. The conversations that I have currently are not dissatisfying, rather they simply do not cover what I would sometimes like to be talking about.

Since I have not found this person (yet) I will vent on here.

In an essay that I read recently, 'Revenge is Sour' by George Orwell, Orwell outlines how revenge is never as satisfying once the deliverer has pursued it. He talks about this in terms of a Jew getting revenge on a powerless Nazi following the collapse of Germany in WWII. The Jew now has the power to do what he wishes to the helpless German soldier, but because the opportunity has presented itself in a way that sees the shoe on the other foot, the revenge becomes more an act committed for 'the sake of it' rather than one motivated by a true desire to cause harm. Today I read a quote by the rather pessimistic and particularly ignorant Arthur Schopenhauer (pictured);

It would be better if there were nothing. Since there is more pain than pleasure on earth, every satisfaction is only
transitory, creating new desires and new distresses, and the agony of the devoured animal is always far greater
than the pleasure of the devourer.

Basically, I made some sort of association between the two ideas, and was desperate to express this, somehow.

:)